I'm am holding on to God's promises for dear life in all these life changes. I could not do all of this without His peace and guidance. I could worry about so many things, but that does me no good. I keep getting reminded that I am a child of God. He is in control of my life. I do not need to, nor should I, worry like the world does, like it's all up to themselves to make their lives work for them.
I refuse to let the world dictate what I should worry about and how I'm supposed to go about getting what I want from life. That's not how my life works as a follower of Christ. It might seem counter-intuitive, but it promises to be MUCH easier on my part to release worry and bring my burdens and needs to my Jesus and trust Him to provide what I can not.
"Peace I [Jesus] leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid." John 14:27
"The Lord is my strength and my shield; in Him my heart trusts and I am helped; my heart exults, and with my song I give thanks to Him." Psalm 28:7
"Open your mouth wide, and I will fill it." Psalm 81:10
"Those who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint." Isaiah 40:31
These and like verses are what I cling to. I am not alone. It is not all up to me. I will, of course, try my hardest and do all I can to succeed. But I will not worry about what is not up to me to provide. I know that God is in control.
He is able to give me the strength, time, and clarity of mind to finish grad school strong, gleaning all I need to know to be competent in the field I am in. He is able to prepare my heart to be a good wife. He is able to provide for all our needs as we plan this wedding and our beginning of life together. He is able to provide both of us with good work that we can find purpose in, with pay enough to support ourselves. He is able to give us health and healing in our bodies.
He is able to do great things, and I am so very glad to know that we are not alone.