My time here at The Kilns is quickly coming to an end and I am attempting to leave with no regrets or things left undone, yet also knowing there is only so much I can possible experience while here in this realm of infinite possibility.
I have entertained and cooked for world renown authors and sat in discussion with them in C. S. Lewis' old common room. I have walked the enchanted paths that inspired Narnia and Middle Earth and have found my own inspirations for possible worlds of my own future publications. I have walked the halls and streets of the ancient Oxford college buildings, libraries, and chapels where I have heard the voices of little boy angels singing praises to God reverberating off vaulted ceilings. I have made dear friends that I will keep close to my heart for a lifetime and have been challenged and encouraged by them to know God more in ways that I have never experienced before. And I have discovered and read wonderful books while sitting at a sunny window overlooking trees and listening to the beautiful voices of English birdsong.
So instead of looking back and thinking of all the things I could have done or all the time I might have put to better use while staying here at The Kilns, I will think upon these memories. And through them I will always find myself raising tearful eyes to my wonderful loving Father God who sent me here when I needed it most.
My future is still very much unknown. And this still very much troubles my nature for desiring always a clearly scheduled plan. However, through my experiences here and even through my very struggles with my scary unknown future I am learning that I really can trust God that He really is in control and can handle my problems. I now have quite a few stepping stones of faith moments fulfilled to stand upon as I wait to see what God will do next!