My Story

My God is full of wonder, and each day I am learning more about Him
and the amazing plans He has laid out for the adventure that is my life.

This is my story.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Waiting With Bated Breath

I have officially applied for the Masters of Science program at Azusa Pacific University in College Counseling and Student Development. Now I am waiting for the references to come in and for the school to decide my fate. I feel confident, but perhaps I shouldn't. There's nothing worse than rising high on expectations only to have them crash and burn. It's the only other thing that Anne and I disagree on. (The other is the fact that she doesn't like November, and I love it.) However, I digress.

Well, I don't know what else to say or what else to update. My life is rather quiet besides that one piece of tension. I wake up every morning, ready myself for the day, and then proceed to apply for jobs online. Not one call back yet. It's been a few weeks of this monotonous routine, and I am trying not to give in to discouragement. But God has been very good. I am not suffering from the horrible anxiety that nearly paralyzed me during most of this past year. I have found hope again, and not because of anything in particular or any great change in my life (for there hasn't been). I think it's because I've finally given up. I have recognized that God is in control of my life and He is in charge of my future. I will do all that I can in front of me, but He is in charge. And because He is so good, I have hope.

I am also yet again greatly enjoying my favorite book of all time (besides the Bible) - Jane Eyre. No other fictitious book gives me such pleasure, hope, and biblical inspiration. Every time I read it I get more from it than the time before. And THAT is the sign of a truly wonderful book! Charlotte Bronte was an amazing writer, and obviously had a wealth of deep spiritual insight that just came through her storytelling naturally because of who she was, and not in annoyingly shallow platitudes or morals. I love this story so much. (And as an aside, I realized that it is a form of the Beauty and the Beast story mixed with Cinderella. No wonder I love it!)

Well, that's all I have for now.